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 15 Sept. 2026

Well, here it is halfway through Sept. and I gave myself a timeline of the end of October to make the move to Idaho or staying here for the winter. That leaves me 6 weeks to find the place to live, sell my home, pack up all I'm taking, and get moved before the snowfall to where I'm traveling to. Truthfully, in my limited power, it can't be done.... BUT...I serve a God Who always does the impossible when I ask Him to and take my hands off of it. It could still happen. It could even happen after the snow falls, though I wouldn't want that.

I'm someone who needs to understand things, how it's going to happen, when, who's going to pay for it all, and will I be happy after I get there or feel I made another huge life mistake? I'm always trying to understand how God's going to do it, hence, I'm always stepping on my own toes of accomplishment.

I would love to say that I have full operation of the wisdom that God has given to me in full capacity of working. He gave me His wisdom when He gave the Holy Spirit within me. It's already in me and I can call upon it whenever I need it. But, I doubt too much, I don't know how to trust it even as I confess that I trust Jesus and His plans for me. It is completely frustrating to know that I fight myself doubts and that gets in the way of knowing God's word is true and He never lies. I CAN trust Him, but I stumble.

Serving the Living, Unending, Infallible, Might God Jehovah, should be much easier. He created me, He loves me, Jesus died for my sins to be covered and washed me with His blood. I am a new creation in Him. Why don't I trust that?

Yet still, I DO believe.... 

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