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1 April 2026

 Dear Me,

I'm learning somethings about you. I'm realizing that there are pieces of you that you have kept caged up, held back, unreleased, and ignored for many a year. 

There are secrets within you that only God and you know. You've spent a few years trying to discern what was inside and release it, but you were always fearful of what others, including your lovers, would believe about you if you showed the truths. You gained expertise in mask wearing, fitting in wherever you needed to be, but ALWAYS hungry for someone to open up to completely. You found that person once, but also discovered you couldn't trust him with ALL of yourself, you weren't important enough to him. Perhaps, if you had had enough time together, you could have grown enough in trust to open yourself, BUT, again, you weren't important enough for him.

Where is that one who will allow you to be completely your entire self? To reach inside of your safe place and help you draw out that part of yourself you keep hiding from, hiding even from yourself? You know she is aching to be seen, experienced, released from her restraints and set free to fly. Where is he?

Do you believe there is anyone in the vast sea of men out there that could be someone strong enough to allow you to venture into that place and see who you are in there?

I don't know.....  

 


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