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 24 May 2025

Since my last post, my faith has wiggled a little. The house I've been asking and trusting God for, sold to another person and I don't understand why it happened that way. The support group I was putting together that I believed God was calling me into, has fizzled away after a few hundred dollars, lots of work and prayer, and two shelves of gathered materials.

I'm struggling with the history behind me and wondering why I tried one more time believing God had called me to step out. Many times I've stepped out believing that God was directing me to do so, only to fall flat. 

I KNOW that God isn't the problem, it is me, but what? Where do I keep failing?

Life is not for sissies as my father in law always said.

Yet, BUT GOD, He is always in my corner holding me with His righteous right hand. 

 I will always believe...

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